My name is Maddie McGill and in the fall, I will be a ninth
grader at Walt Whitman high school.
Saturday June 15, I had one friend, in the PPC mission
group, just one, my sister, Carolyn.
I am an introvert. I do not walk up to a random people on
the street and start a conversation. I would never start a conversation with
stranger at school, let alone expose all my vulnerabilities to a group of young
adults that to me were foreigners. It is hard for me to meet new people. It is
hard for me to let go of my insecurities and become unreserved in a new
environment. My mom knew me all too well when she reminded me I needed to work
hard, step out of my comfort zone, and really talk to these kids in the
upcoming week. Yes, she was right, but in the back of my mind knew it would not
be easy.
Going into the trip, I did not know why I signed up. Maybe
it would be fun, maybe I could really make a difference, maybe it would be an
opportunity to make new friends, or maybe somehow it would change me. Even that
morning of June 15th I was
hesitant to go. Perhaps I should stay home with my phone and other electronics.
A whole week with no communication between my parents and I seemed
unimaginable. Not to mention I was nervous in the sense that not only were
these kids strangers to me but I was a stranger to them. Nevertheless, I packed
and drove to PPC that morning with my one friend. I’m not going to lie, when we stood in the
parking lot that morning waiting to embark on our journey to Kentucky, I felt
like an outsider, excluded and awkward.
Throughout the week when the youth group goes on mission,
there is never a time one can be alone. Whether it is when we went to the
Wal-Mart, worked on the worksite, when we showered, brushed teeth or changed,
you name it we were together. If I was to survive, I had to interact. Just put
myself out there and have faith these people would accept me.
When I sat down to write this sermon, I told myself: it
would be simple; just write about how much fun you had and how you bonded with
everyone. But, when I met 23 new people and spent a week living with them, and
then was asked to look back and write about how I became friends with these
people: I couldn’t.
Bonding: the present participle of the word bond (verb); to
establish a relationship with someone based on shared feelings, interests, or
experiences.
Although everyone that went to Kentucky seemed to be
different from one another, in the end we all shared basic similarities: we
were away from home, out of our comfort zones, needed some privacy, were tired,
sore, frustrated with others, upset with our worksites, happy with our
worksites, and most of all we were all a mission aiming to help others. Perhaps
that was something that brought us all together.
When Kendra informed us that we would not be allowed to use
our phones because we all needed to “bond”, I think maybe she should have used
a different word. I mean, yes, we all bonded, but bonding is just establishing
a relationship, or an association. The connections I made last week were much
deeper than an association; they are companionships. The youth group became a family.
When I first came to PPC and saw Kendra do children’s
worship, then Sean do his sermon, I immediately felt comforted, spiritually
touched and knew that this was my new church. There was I a way I idolized them
both; I looked up to them as if they were of much higher power; like a child to
their parent. And yes I still do idolize pastor Sean and Kendra, but they are
more like the older sibling now. The relationships they have with each and
every youth group member is truly indescribable, something one must experience
for them self. One I feel for me has only started to begin. I never thought I
would connect to them like I would with the kids on the trip but I did, and it
was life- changing.
I may not be able to establish or recognize the exact events
or moments at which the youth became friends, but I do know why. The PPC youth
group is made up of the most fun loving, caring, welcoming, optimistic and
sometimes crazy people. The moment I would start to feel excluded I would be
asked to ride in someone’s car, help them cut down a tree, offered a pack of
gummies from their food stash or saved a seat a dinner; these small, seemingly
insignificant gestures made all the difference.
A lot of people who go on mission trips will tell you that
the residents, and carpenters changed their lives. For me, getting to know my
pastors and this youth changed my perspective on life and required me to open
my eyes.
In the book John chapter 9, Jesus heals the blind man. Not
only does Jesus literally undo the man’s blindness but also opens the eyes of
the towns’ people to see whom the blind man really is. When reading the
scripture one can easily envision Jesus physically healing his eyes and changing
the town people’s outlook. But did the town’s people really know what he was
doing? Healing the blind man is a metaphor for how sometimes you have to change
one to change the perspectives of others. The towns’ people were quick to judge
the man for why he was blind. Most believed it was from sin. Jesus clarified
that the man had not sinned nor had his parents and ancestors. One should not
be quick to judge for the stories of others may be untold. We must open our
eyes to see the world as Jesus would. I too, was once quick to judge the PPC
youth group. But once my eyes opened I learned wonders about how accepting they
are. I learned about the Youth, and they helped me learn about myself; I just
had to open my eyes to see it.
God opens the eyes of people every day, we just have to stop
and allow them to open.
I walk away from my experience understanding that God truly
does everything for a reason. God will test you but only for your own good. You
may not know why or how he is testing you but you should always trust what he
has in store for you. Sometimes one has to take a leap of faith and know that
trust will fall later. I know I was meant to go to Kentucky. I know I was meant
to meet all these new people. And I know that, on June 15, God tested me.
Sunday June 30, I have 24 new friends, the PPC mission
group.
I love you all.